When I was a teen I was going through some tough times. I was confused, I was lonely, nothing was going my way and the whole world was against me. Sound familiar? Now, life as an adult isn't any less complicated and difficult. Especially recently, my world seems like it's caving in. One problem after another forcing it's weight on my shoulders. Sometimes, I feel like I can't bear the weight of another. So many things happen that are out of my control and I begin to doubt myself and wonder if I have the strength to make it through. With my head low, I ask myself, "What, on this forsaken earth can I do?", "I have to do something?" Short of making myself crazy there is nothing I can do except, to resign. Then, I recall my mother as a teen. She knew I was struggling and sat me down one day. She took my hands in her lap, looked me in the eye and said, "Say this prayer for me, I cast these burdens on the Christ within, and I go free". Of course as a teen I rolled my eyes and said, "Oh Mom! Please!". But she was persistent, "Just do it with me", "I cast these burdens on the Christ within, and I go free". She had me do it again and again, and something wonderful happened. The weight on my shoulders began to lift, my head came up higher and now I was facing her. Then she said, "Now...I want you to do something else" and she handed me a journal. "I want you to write down everything you are thankful for". "What?" I thought..this woman is crazy. She went on, "I want you to write every little thing, no matter how ridiculous it may be", "You can say, I'm thankful for my clear skin today", "What ever you want but, you have to write at least 5 things everyday and for at least 2 weeks." "2 WEEKS?" I screamed. "Just do it" she repeated. "Why?" I say. "Because, you will set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you. Do this exercise and things will change for you." "Yeah, right", I said under my breath as she sent me to my room to get started. A few days later, things began to change. I changed. The world was looking brighter and my problems began to work themselves out. Back then, I didn't realize the profoundness of the exercise and now I find myself reflecting on it deeply. Once again, Mom was right.
The other day, I was in the "Why are you unhappy today? forum and posted my complaint. It was a great release, and I'm glad it was there for me at the time. But then, I'm sure as others have done, I read back posts and realized that my problems are minute compared to others. How could I complain when there is so much more suffering in this world? I should be thankful for what I do have. And that's what led me to my little story to you all. And thought, what a great way to help people in the same desperate situation as I am in today. Why not give the same gift as my Mom gave me? It's not about religion and it's not about your faith. It doesn't matter what your beliefs are, everyone can do it. Be thankful for what you have and your world will change...
There are no rules except to list at least 5 things (or more) you are thankful for. This will be "our journal", let it flow and may peace be with you.
I am thankful for...
spring finally arriving.
my five beautiful children, Taci, Alex, Jesse, Jordan and Nico.
my mom and her infinite wisdom. I love you Mom!